diamond

this week has been a really long and tiring week and if not for babe's love i would not have made it thru as successful as i thought. from projects to assignments and studying for test, i had to meet appointments with friends for catching up and farewells.

just thinkin about you babe, gives me the strength to go thru life here on my own. it would have been great to have you by my side babe but even when you are so far away, your picture, your voice and your love crosses boundaries and motivates me in ways that even you and i cant imagine. i guess that is the power of love. and with this, i am willing to go into unventured terrains.

next week is gonna be no better with projects submissions and tests but i know i will get thru it. had a talk with my ex-2IC while i was in the army and he was askin me about work and all. told him about how i am barely breathing but the experience is something i am lookin forward to and enduring and he told me to stick to it because he knows that i can handle it and that at the end of the day, i will come out much better than i am.

and i totally agree. thats what pressure does to you. if you stick and dun crumble under it, you have the oppotunity of gianing so much more. to be much better than you can ever be. take the graphite. with time and physical pressure and heat, it becomes a diamond, one that is so adored. and while i am not suggesting we put ourselves under such conditions, our characters will be moulded in the same way under other types of pressure and we will come out much better. the question to ask yourself is this:

are you willing to endure it all for the long run?

will you just be that graphite?

or is there a diamond waiting to come out?

Tariq :: email ::
|8:49 pm|
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now and the future

i do not have a house now, but i will build a castle in the future
i do not have a car now, but i will have an underground carpark full of it in the future
i do not have fame and fortune now but i will be recognized and respected in the future
i do not have a diamond ring to give you now but i will give you a complete set of the purest diamonds in the future
i do not have a lot of money with me now but i will have too much to even know how to spend it in the future
i do not have kids to call my own now but i will have a prince and princess in the future

great dreams i agree. but possible with your love babe. however one thing that will never change from now and forever is clear to me:

you are my babe now just as i am yours. and forever we shall belong to each other.

I love you babe

Tariq :: email ::
|11:03 pm|
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and then the belief died

had a talk with a good friend yesterday and he was telling me about his work. how it doesnt seem to be going well for him and how he's thinking of switchin jobs again. i told him to stick it in and try harder. i told him that as long as you believe and want to make your place better, you can do it. and it will get better. but if you say negative things, then things just wun happen for you. you've thrown in the towel. his reply to me was, you cannot apply such thoughts to work, the reality is different. at that point, i realised his mindset had changed and we had a difference in perspectives. so i just smiled and wish him all the best.

but deep in my mind and my heart, i believed that what he said was untrue. yes, life at work is harder than at school and we might not be able to apply those same principles at work. but i'd beg to differ. its not impossible. it's a huge obstacle. that's as far as i agreed.

take this true story. a guy decided one day that he didn't want to work for anyone anymore as he believed that a job will not give him the security anybody requires when they grow older. so he set out to make himself self-sufficient thru setting up his own companies. for 9 years, he lived out of his car, with his and at times they had to go thru days without food. for 9 years, they did not take on any part time jobs or beg for money to supplement their daily need. they kept their belief that one day they will succeed and this will be behind them. and 9 years later, they finally realised their dream. 10 years after that realisation, they managed to retire peacefully, him being at the age of 45 and his wife at 35.

2 different stories. 2 different endings. most people's life parallels the first one but for the few and far in betweem who parallels the latter story, their lives are usually much much better of. the guy in story 2 also harboured thoughts of giving up because things were going tough for him and his wife, but his wife kept him focused. ah the power of true love.

so it is up to you now to decide what you want in life. take the easy way out and decide on something that would solve your problem for the time being. or take the harder way out, stick with your beliefs and at the end of the day, celebrate your win in any way you want to.

the choice is yours.

Tariq :: email ::
|8:57 am|
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perspectives

cant believe somethin in history class actually has a direct impact but that only goes to show that not everything we learn in school will become useless later on.

perspectives. a lot of arguments stem from this. i know my latest one does. the thing about perspectives is no one is right, neither is anyone wrong. because with perspective, you have your own set of rules and principles that you live by. these sets were created by you and moulded by your surroundings. even brothers and sisters living together for the longest of times would have different perspectives on the same issue.

one could say the grass is green, but if i were to counter and say that the grass is blue, am i wrong? sure common sense says that grass is green but could always grow grass in a blue solution and it'll turn out blue. its a weak argument to some, but the simplicity of it doesnt make it any less insignificant when understand this complex issue.

so how do we overcome this perspective barrier in relationships? well, the solution, like most solutions, would be to stop it before it even happens. you have to sit down with the that person and iron out the rules because in times of crisis, different people will act differently. so lay out those rules and agree to it. no point layin out your rules and nobody agrees. and no point laying out general rules that would have potential loopholes in the future.

i know its hard work, but with it comes the promise that you will have less arguments or maybe even none because now people will know what is expected of them in times of needs. and you dun have to do it with everyone, just with the people that matter. like the people at work, your family, your group mates. know what the rules are before plunging in or you'll be the frustrated one in the end.

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|3:42 pm|
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