LIGHT OF MY HEART

Monday, March 21, 2005

i don't wanna miss a thing

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Cause I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing

Tariq :: email ::
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Saturday, March 19, 2005

money

is it just me or is that being materialistic is part of most singaporeans genes? it's like a lot of girls that i noe of (there are those guys too) who are really, and i mean really materialistic. everything is about chasing the materialistic things in life.

a girl once told me that money is not everything in this world, but u do need money to survive. i kinda cringed when i heard that coz makin money your primary goal just isnt worth it, no matter at what cost.

so what if u drive a lamborghini or ferrari? so what if you have a house that's divided into a west wing and an east wing and u have an underground carpark that houses every make of mercedes from 1970 till the present? so what if you have all the materialistic thing in life? then what's your next goal? precisely my question to you.

while i do agree that u do need the green to survive in this world, but when u think about it all the time, it somehow gets to you after a while and changes you. you start to see people differently. what used to be ur friends now become ur rich friends and poor friends. you may not agree yet with me but time is a good teacher.

its alright to think bout money. but not all the time such that everythin that u think about has to do with it. should i get him that shirt for his birthday? he really likes it? nah i shan't spend that amount of money on him. what's up with that? money has s tarted to control the person.

the trick to chasing money is not to chase it too hard. like a bird in your hand, if you hold it too tight, it'll die and if you hold it too loosely, it'll fly away. and if you treat money that way, u would have mastered it and still be able to enjoy it.

think about it.

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|2:51 am|
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Thursday, March 10, 2005

randomness

a student is asked to toss a coin 100 times and write down the results if the toss turned up a head or a tail in the sequence it appeared. he is then asked to write another sequence of 100 coin toss BUT without tossing the coins AND which he thinks is a random sequence. he was then asked to submit both results to the teacher for analysis.

the teacher was able to tell which set of results was with the coin toss and which one was generated by the student even though the results din have any indication which set they belonged to.

how was this possible?

it is said that the trained eye is able to tell if a random event has occurred. now the thing that i am curious about is this: if an event is random yet a trained eye can point out if it was generated or random because the event follows a set of rules, can the event be considered to be random in the first place.

before i confuse you people further, i will explain what this set of rules is. for the coin toss, if you were take the runs of heads (a run being the number of times the head comes up continuously in a series of tosses, therefore HHH would represent a run of 3 heads and H would represent a run of 1 head and so forth), and plot it against the number of times the runs appear, the plot would fit a curve. the more the number of tosses, the better fit the curve.

now that we've gotten that out of the way, do u start to wonder, how a random event, such as a coin toss can have a determined set of results? its like you're able to predict the future for something that can go either way literally.

if randomness can really be pointed out and it has a set of rules, can it be called random anymore? it doesnt follow our defination of being random anymore.

or is our mindset limited such that we arent able to see a bigger picture that laid out before us?

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|6:23 pm|
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Tuesday, March 08, 2005

plastic pearls

Jenny was a bright-eyed, pretty five-year-old girl. One day
when she and her mother were checking out at the grocery
store, Jenny saw a plastic pearl necklace priced at $2.50.
How she wanted that necklace and when she asked her
mother if she would buy it for her, her mother said, "Well,
it is a pretty necklace, but it costs an awful lot of money.

I'll tell you what. I'll buy you the necklace, and when we
get home we can make up a list of chores that you can do
to pay for the necklace. And don't forget that for your birth-
day Grandma just might give you a whole dollar bill, too.
Okay?" Jenny agreed, and her mother bought the pearl neck-
lace for her. Jenny worked on her chores very hard everyday, and sure
enough, her Grandma gave her a brand new dollar bill for her
birthday. Soon Jenny had paid off the pearls.
How Jenny loved those pearls. She wore them everywhere -
to kindergarten, bed, and when she went out with her mother
to run errands. The only time she didn't wear them was in the
shower -her mother had told her that they would turn her neck
green.

Now Jenny had a very loving daddy. When Jenny went to bed,
he would get up from his favorite chair every night and read
Jenny her favorite story. One night when he finished the story,
he said, "Jenny, do you love me?"
"Oh yes, Daddy, you know I love you," the little girl said. "Well,
then, give me your pearls."
"Oh daddy, not my pearls!" Jenny said."But you can have Rosie,
my favorite doll. Remember her? You gave her to me last year
for my birthday.And you can have her tea party outfit,too.Okay?"
"Oh no, darling, that's okay." Her father brushed her cheek with
a kiss. "Good night, little one."
A week later, her father once again asked Jenny after her story,
"Do you love me?"
"Oh yes, Daddy, you know I love you."
"Well, then, give me your pearls."
"Oh, Daddy, not my pearls! But you can have Ribbons, my toy
horse. Do you remember her? She's my favorite. Her hair is so
soft, and you can play with it and braid it and everything. You
can have Ribbons if you want her, Daddy," the little girl said to
her father.
"No, that's okay," her father said and brushed her cheek again
with a kiss. "God bless you, little one. Sweet dreams."

Several days later, when Jenny's father came in to read her a
story, Jenny was sitting on her bed and her lip was trembling. "Here,
Daddy," she said, and held out her hand. She opened it and her
beloved pearl necklace was inside. She let it slip into her
father's hand.

With one hand her father held the plastic pearls and with the
other he pulled out of his pocket a blue velvet box. Inside of the
box were real, genuine, beautiful pearls. He had them all along.
He was waiting for Jenny to give up the cheap stuff so he could
give her the real thing.
So it is with our Heavenly Father. He is waiting for us to give
up the cheap things in our lives so that he can give us beautiful
treasure. Isn't God good?

Are you holding onto things which God wants you to let go of?
Are you holding onto harmful or unnecessary partners,
relationships, habits and activities which you have become so attached
to that it seems impossible to let go?
Sometimes it is so hard to see what is in the other hand but do
believe this one thing...................... God will never take
away something without giving you something better in its place.
Remember that the greatest gifts happen when you share love and
touch other's hearts. God bless you!

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|1:19 am|
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Sunday, March 06, 2005

be understanding to your enemies
be loyal to your friends
be strong enough to face the world each day
be weak enough to know you cannot do everything alone
be generous to those who need help
be frugal with what you need yourself
be wise enough to know that you do not know everything
be foolish enough to believe in miracles
be willing to share your joys
be willing to share the sorrows of others
be a leader when you are shrouded by the midst of uncertainty
be the first to congratulate an opponent who succeeds
be the last to criticize the colleague who fails
be sure your next step will fall so you will not stumble
be be sure of your final destination in case you are going the wrong way
be loving to those who love you

above all, be yourself

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Saturday, March 05, 2005

live the dream

they say there's a fine line between reality. but where is that fine line drawn? and can it be shifted or is it the same for everyone? is it possible to be awake and still live in a world that u and many others dream of?

highly possible. and achievable if. if you want it that is. now wait a minute, if one could make their dreams come true, wouldnt everyone want to then? then what's stopping them from doing so? the answer's simple yet complex: your mind.

i think therefore i am. u find what u seek. some of the phrases that i share with ppl who ask how i live my life. settin myself limits was somethin i din do. when i wanted somethin, i din say it was too hard or too difficult or that i couldnt afford to do it. those were obstacles that i din need in achievin my goals. and it made my journey so much easier. focusin on the positive but keepin in mind the negatives in case they did come up, i could handle it. and life was pretty much good for me.

but out of the blue, i was made to realise that there was more in store. and the funny thing about it was i wasnt expecting it to happen. they say that the greatest things in life usually happen when u least expect it and i'm a believer of that; me being a happy victim of such circumstances.

so do dreams come true or they just something that we do when lectures get too boring? u decide. but if your answer's the latter, talk to me and u may just change your mind :P dreams d come true if you believe in it long enough and keep the faith.

when you want something you never had, you must do something you have never done

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|5:08 pm|
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Tuesday, March 01, 2005

the power of love

The whispers in the morning
Of lovers sleeping tight
Are rolling like thunder now
As I look in your eyes

I hold on to your body
And feel each move you make
Your voice is warm and tender
A love that I could not forsake

(first chorus)
'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can

Lost is how I'm feeling lying in your arms
When the world outside's too
Much to take
That all ends when I'm with you

Even though there may be times
It seems I'm far away
Never wonder where I am
'Cause I am always by your side

(repeat first chorus)

(second chorus)
We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love

The sound of your heart beating
Made it clear
Suddenly the feeling that I can't go on
Is light years away
(repeat first chorus)

(repeat second chorus)

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|2:39 am|
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